I believe she wrote that essentially the dog was not worth her time to take it to an animal rescue facility because a rancher is too busy. However, I suspect she didn't want to be embarrassed at someone else could and would train the dog properly. A vet would like have offered to re-home the pup in some way, as well.
I wonder if she ever successfully trained a dog. If not, it was irresponsible for her to take it in the first place.
The bottom line is she failed. Failed to learn how to train a dog, to pick a dog that she could train and she failed to admit her limits. The most expedient way to get rid of her personal shame was to erase the dog by killing it. Then, as long as that felt good to her, she did the same with a goat that she also didn't deal with properly.
That's for her. I wonder what her husband thought of these killings then and what they have thought since.
All told, it seems she knew she had failed and couldn't admit it so the easy way out of admitting her limitations was to kill the animals and move on. Then, she decided to embellish the memory with justifications and use the events as "proof" of not her failures but her abilities to decide and execute, pun intended. However, few are buying that reasoning which, I suspect, is a great shock to her.
My guess is she is resolute that "some" people just "don't understand," and that's something that's true because most of us know that it takes a big person to admit limitations and mistakes and she refuses.
I believe she wrote that essentially the dog was not worth her time to take it to an animal rescue facility because a rancher is too busy. However, I suspect she didn't want to be embarrassed at someone else could and would train the dog properly. A vet would like have offered to re-home the pup in some way, as well.
I wonder if she ever successfully trained a dog. If not, it was irresponsible for her to take it in the first place.
The bottom line is she failed. Failed to learn how to train a dog, to pick a dog that she could train and she failed to admit her limits. The most expedient way to get rid of her personal shame was to erase the dog by killing it. Then, as long as that felt good to her, she did the same with a goat that she also didn't deal with properly.
That's for her. I wonder what her husband thought of these killings then and what they have thought since.
All told, it seems she knew she had failed and couldn't admit it so the easy way out of admitting her limitations was to kill the animals and move on. Then, she decided to embellish the memory with justifications and use the events as "proof" of not her failures but her abilities to decide and execute, pun intended. However, few are buying that reasoning which, I suspect, is a great shock to her.
My guess is she is resolute that "some" people just "don't understand," and that's something that's true because most of us know that it takes a big person to admit limitations and mistakes and she refuses.